Monday, February 2, 2009

its our 5th mths anniversary its kinda like a sad story to me this is the muffins i baked today~ all i did was for you...i wanna surprise u with it though it might be plain... and i learned it from the net... yet after 5 tries only this last batch was the best i didnt even wanna tell u this secret we have been tgt for quite long le... i understand u cant always go out with me but why not at least have a meet-up??? perhaps just 30mins of your time is that too much? i just wish to embrace u till like forever but there are times that u just made me feel like an idiot waiting for nothing~ u have to rush ur projects i understand u told me how tight u were tied down said to me those how pitiful and stuck in a poor family that doesnt allow u to have loads of frens nor freedom... but when i gave u a call to converse awhile, u told me that your frens are over at ur place i felt like a complete retard at that very moment im like DUMB!!! the days when i used to smoke heavily but after u told me reduce it if not how to take care of u in the future... that sentence striked me hard...and i started to kick that habit of mine... 1more day to 1mth of quitting... my sorrowness make me wanna grab another pack this was when u first rebonded ur hair during your holidays im like sitting inside to wait and wait...haha...and i never forget wad u said but u tend to treat me like nothing... even ppl will sweep away trash but im like not even trash to u...wad am i in ur mind??? thats my love for u dearest baobei loved to see u so happily playing... didnt wanna see u EMO so often... the days u were in hongkong were like my saddest part of year 2008 cos my heart was like aching whenever i think bout u all i could do is to look at pix and recall wad we did tgt...how ur smile was and how u tried to make me happy but in the end you were pissed off and needed me to coax u haha but that was like part of the game right? anyway i just love u and u would neglect me wad am i supposed to do???

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